First steps to bigger things

One of the biggest realisations over the past few days is the realisation of the privilege that I have over the next few months; financial and geographical freedom to explore and mould the entirety of what I wish to do with my life, and yet try and enjoy it all and take in the natural beauty of what surrounds us in the new places Sonam and I explore. In a way, what overriding emotion I have these days is fear. And not fear that I feel most people expect me to have; "will I get a good job at the end of it all?", "have I made a mistake?" etc. I'm really not worried about any of those things, at all. Mostly just "Will I make the most of it?" That fear is natural because most people, throughout the world, when given freedom and time, do very little that is worth doing with it. We fill it, perhaps if we are lucky, with fun memories that shape a very small part of our life and gives us a little break before we get back on the treadmill of churning out paycheques for a company or corporation. The last week has been filled with errands; wedding planning, packing, job interviews on the phone, selling my car (part 1 to getting that convertible!), and beginning the gruelling uphill climb that will be my journey to lose weight and get into shape. It kind of sums up what we mostly do with free time. Get shit done before life gets in the way again. 

One thing that really struck a chord with me of late was the documentary "The Internet's Own Boy: The Story of Aaron Swartz". For those who haven't seen it, it's a fascinating tale about a brilliant genius, and without going into the mildly depressing yet inspiring details, one quote that struck me was from his ex-girlfriend, who said "Aaron believed you ought be asking yourself all the time, 'what is the most important thing in the world that I could be working on right now?' and if you're not working on that, why aren't you?"

I know, I know, its an extreme view, but one that makes me think twice about what I should be trying to achieve over the next few months. Instinct draws people like me, and most people, to find security, stability, and THEN go innovate and explore. But that defies the purpose of freedom, and the adventure it is supposed to provide. How can you really enjoy trying something new, if one eye is always looking at the safety net you expect to drift towards someday soon? 

Anyway, I have taken a mini step to two things on the bucket list. 

Firstly, I sold my rude boy class Golf GTI for a bargain price of 3.5k. As it turns out I was much more of a rude boy than I thought, and I'd massively ruined random parts of it over the years, and the cost of getting it fixed was really not worth it to try and achieve a few extra hundred pounds. Either way, it takes me past the $5k mark, which means I can most probably buy an awesome old convertible in 'murica and get it insured. Let the road trips to new places begin.

Secondly, I signed up to a Fintech Meet Up group in LA. My start up idea is a Fintech Idea effectively. In fact I have two that I think would be handy. But the group is meeting a week after I land, and I can't wait to see the amazing things people with similar interests, and potentially similar ideas, are working on. 

So, in between now and LA, I'll be working on trying to figure out what it is I want to be working on, and all the while remembering to have an amazingly fun time. Phew, being unemployed is exhausting..

Also, this is a Chune my rudeboy ex-car would be proud of. Also, it makes me excited for that wedding we're planning..